Changes

Scott and I are laughing because it feels like we moved. I packed up a ton of stuff during my week off, and now I have to unpack it all - it just happens to be right back where it was. :)
I moved to Ann Arbor and worked at a fabulous new job for a whole 6 days. NSF was great and I LOVED the job. However I slept only a couple hours a night the whole first week just because I was stressed. I don't think either of us thought it would be so hard for Scott to find a good job there. But even if he did, I think he really wanted to stay at GE. Either way, he was going to have to commute, or we were both going to have to commute from Lansing, we were going to have to finish up our house to try and sell it, and we both agreed that we wanted to continue attending Brookside and our small group, and eventually raise our kids in Grand Rapids. So after a miserable week missing Scott, and a great weekend (getting lots of sleep) with him, and another sleepless night before having to drive back to Ann Arbor and go back to work on Tuesday, I decided it just wasn't going to work. A job isn't worth all of that. So I did drive in to NSF Tuesday morning but I was pretty certain by the time I got there what I was going to do. I felt bad, especially since they wanted me to stay another couple weeks but at that point I just wanted to go home. I finished up the day Tuesday and we "parted on good terms".
So now I'm struggling a bit with not working, and knowing I'm never going to get a good job like that in my actual field again. I need to find a job but its hard to find motivation to apply to jobs that don't sound so interesting. I know something will pop up eventually though. And in the meantime I get to unpack. And Scott has reluctantly given me the go-ahead to start decorating this house a little (ie putting up pictures, etc) since it looks like we won't be going anywhere for a while.